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fandomnumbergenerator) wrote2013-02-14 10:35 am
fandomnumbergenerator) wrote2013-02-14 10:35 am
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Chipping
I was trying to figure out how to use “chip” in a sentence. It’s one of those words that you run across if you read a lot about drugs, but I think the only person who I ever heard use it was Gabe (who is now a librarian), who asked me if I was a chippie, but he was just sort of testing the word out, and he is incidentally the only person I have ever heard say, “chasing the dragon,” so you know he reads too much. But I also maybe remember that it was the word that Nicole used when she was so mad about me and Kate getting high at her loft (see this post). I’m terrible at dialog, and it’s not like I was taking notes while Nicole was calling me a hurtful, naive, self-involved junkie. But it’s a word that Nicole might use – when I went to her baffled by Naked Lunch, she recommended I read Junky and Queer, and even though she’s in graduate school for EE now, she was at one point trying to be a writer, and is very interested in language.
So I was googling around trying to find some examples of chip being used in the wild, and found a drug forum thread about heroin hangovers, which used to happen to me all the time, but which I’ve never heard anyone else talk about. The morning after I got high, I would get throwing-up-bile sick with a pounding headache and the only thing I could do would be try to get enough fluids into me and sleep it off. So, apparently, it’s a real thing, and is probably some version of a rebound headache, which is what people who take too much opiate headache medication get. And it’s a phenomenon peculiar to chippers, because you need to have developed a little bit of tolerance, but not enough to get actual withdrawls.
It’s kind of amazing to me that I managed to do dope for five years without getting strung out. Which is not to say that I wasn’t psychologically addicted. I just have to look at the times I quit for months and then started again and how often I thought about it in the interim. And how much I’ve thought about it since, even as I’ve put myself through the paces of trying to get a real life.
So I was googling around trying to find some examples of chip being used in the wild, and found a drug forum thread about heroin hangovers, which used to happen to me all the time, but which I’ve never heard anyone else talk about. The morning after I got high, I would get throwing-up-bile sick with a pounding headache and the only thing I could do would be try to get enough fluids into me and sleep it off. So, apparently, it’s a real thing, and is probably some version of a rebound headache, which is what people who take too much opiate headache medication get. And it’s a phenomenon peculiar to chippers, because you need to have developed a little bit of tolerance, but not enough to get actual withdrawls.
It’s kind of amazing to me that I managed to do dope for five years without getting strung out. Which is not to say that I wasn’t psychologically addicted. I just have to look at the times I quit for months and then started again and how often I thought about it in the interim. And how much I’ve thought about it since, even as I’ve put myself through the paces of trying to get a real life.