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2013-09-06 04:06 pm

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"He was, in fact, a little frightened of me, so I treated him with extreme politeness. I wanted to get him to trust me, so I would be in a position to hurt his feelings. Not that I ever would, when it came down to it, do such a thing. The thought of hurting anyone made me sick to my stomach with shame – reminding me of the phone call to that hollow-eyed electrician, praying I hadn’t made him feel the way I now felt all the time. As Haakon had told me the day before I left for the halfway house, “You could never get tough. You’ve never had the freedom to toss your moral compass. Basically you’re still a little girl.” I swore if I was ever given another chance I would overcome this defect. No moral compass would disorient me and swerve me off the path of getting high"

— Emily Carter, Glory Goes and Gets Some

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2013-09-06 04:05 pm

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"I told my parents, who were for some reason shocked and amazed, that I was a drug addict. They had thought I was simply a thief, and not a very good one.
I didn’t tell them that I had no intention of abandoning my best boyfriend, the relentless pimp-slapping love of my life; I only wanted to get well enough so I could go back to him in better shape.
So I made another crash landing, through the financial grace of my parents, this time into a treatment center smack in the middle of lake-splotched, mosquito-buzzing Minnesota summer. By this point, I had completely ceased to think of men as human. They were functions that could either confer on me the popularity, Glamour, and status that I so dearly needed, or withhold it. And even more relevant at that time, they could either facilitate my getting high or they could interfere with it, getting high having replaced the need for social anything-at-all."

— Emily Carter, Glory Goes and Gets Some

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2013-09-06 04:04 pm

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"Finally what I did was stay out all night, downing shots of tequila and watching dirty movies with my source of sex, who was getting a little tired of my intensity and thinking he had better find a nice girl and settle down. I have that effect on men, sometimes, sending them screaming back to the girl next door, a phenomenon which I regard with a mixture of embarrassment and pride."

— Emily Carter, Glory Goes and Gets Some

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2013-02-07 10:43 am

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"Like so many other kids gone wrong from my time, place, and class, I thought it was glamorous to be self-destructive. Unfortunately, I had always known that this was a stupid and callow way to think. I knew that self-destruction was a vile method of slumming; I knew that there were people who got destroyed whether they wanted to on not. Here was Glory, beloved baby girl of professional parents, going into neighborhoods her great-grandfather had worked all his life to get out of, sniffing around for heroin, the opiate of the people. Marie Antoinette in her little peasant dress, Glory in her leather jacket. I knew all this, and yet I couldn’t stop."

— Emily Carter, from Glory Goes and Gets Some

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2013-02-07 10:42 am

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"When I meet them outside the theater and we all shake hands I’m thinking I probably really am an alcoholic because one of the questions they ask you is “when you’re in social situations where alcohol is not present, do you feel uncomfortable?” Yes, absolutely. Let’s face it, the only thing I like to do is sit around a bar and drink alcoholic beverages. This meeting people I don’t know, this going to movies, it’s not for me, really it’s not."

— Emily Carter, form Glory Goes and Gets Some