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"He was, in fact, a little frightened of me, so I treated him with extreme politeness. I wanted to get him to trust me, so I would be in a position to hurt his feelings. Not that I ever would, when it came down to it, do such a thing. The thought of hurting anyone made me sick to my stomach with shame – reminding me of the phone call to that hollow-eyed electrician, praying I hadn’t made him feel the way I now felt all the time. As Haakon had told me the day before I left for the halfway house, “You could never get tough. You’ve never had the freedom to toss your moral compass. Basically you’re still a little girl.” I swore if I was ever given another chance I would overcome this defect. No moral compass would disorient me and swerve me off the path of getting high"

— Emily Carter, Glory Goes and Gets Some