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I was going to reblog to the post this actually about, but I so do not have the energy to get into an internet argument with anyone.  So, it’s passive aggressive vague blogging for me.

To make a long story not so long, the issue is the erasure of F/F relationships throughout all of time, including in fandom, even though fandom doesn’t have any of the various “excuses” that for-profit pop-culture falls back on.

But I just don’t have the energy to be berated right now.

Is it possible to just say, I’m trying.  To think about things critically.  To be self-critical and push beyond my comfort zone in any number of ways.

But there are so many other things I should probably be doing other than reading slash (including publishing a scientific paper on mouse immunology and writing a creative nonfiction piece on postpartum depression).

And I know there are so many things wrong with M/M fic from stereotyping gay men to erasing women. And those are just the legitimate problems. There’s also a whole world of cynical media attention focused on humiliating women fans.

And I think it’s possible to say that mainstream and pop culture have a big impact on what you find desirable without abdicating all responsibility for self-improvement.

But, like, desire is not always what you want it to be.  There has always been someone who has found something wrong with my desires.